Moments That Make You Smile and Break Your Heart
The other day as I was driving home from the bank and I was stopped at a familiar red light. While I was waiting for the light to turn green I had this wonderful memory of Martin that put a huge smile on my face, but at the same time made my heart sink a little.
Martin was such a sweetheart and a total romantic. I know he was so in love with me (as I was with him) and he would always show me in both BIG and small ways. When I was pregnant with both Elsie and Graeme, Martin came to every single appointment I had and I had tons since I was high risk. Since he came straight from work we would drive home separately, but I would always follow him home (even though I knew the way). On the way home we usually got stopped at this one red light, the red light I happened to be stopped at. When we were stopped at that light he would ALWAYS make a heart shape with his hands so I could see it from my car to tell me "I LOVE YOU". I would respond by blowing him a kiss which he could see from his rearview mirror. That was our special driving home routine. So as I sat at the light thinking about this I couldn't help but smile and feel happy, but then of course I thought about how much I will miss those hearts, and that made me a little sad.
I am so grateful that I have so many incredible moments with Martin that I am able to think about and happily smile, but it is still difficult to think how now they are only just memories. I truly believe that I was stopped at that light the other day because Martin wanted to let me know that he loves me and is with me now, forever, and always.
I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful love ❤️
ReplyDeleteMay God comfort you and heal your heart!๐น๐ฅฐ๐๐พ❤️๐