Small Update...I plan to Blog More in the New Year

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 I know I haven't been blogging like usual.  It has been a busy time for me.  I have written several pieces about my experience with losing Martin to Covid, I created a Facebook group for young widows and widowers of Covid-19(want to blog about that),  have been interviewed by several outlets about different aspects of my story, and I am working full-time all while raising a 2.5 year old and 1 year old.  Plus I have been busy with making sure Christmas was special for Elsie and Graeme.  I plan to get back into my blogging in the new year, but thought I would share the CafeMom essay that was published before Christmas.  I feel writing is truly healing and the fact that it has always been a passion of mine truly has helped me deal with my grief and start to heal in a healthy way.  I truly feel right now I am in a great place, and although I miss Martin, I know he is with me in everything I do and is also so proud of me.  I hold onto that and it truly does give me the strength I need to move forward without him.  







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  1. Kim SarikJanuary 24, 2021 at 9:21 AM

    You are so brave. I hope you find a village to help you raise these beautiful children. I was a single mother by choice essentially but the Village helped me survive. My daughter is now almost 28 and about to become a mother herself.

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