My Stolen Goodbye
A year since my life changed so drastically and the fact that I didn't get to say goodbye to Martin has been something that has stayed with me and pops into my mind quite often. I just think about how Martin and I were always there for each other, but when he needed me the most I couldn't be by his side cheering him on, and giving him the love and strength I know he needed. Worst of all in his last moments I wasn't there to say "I Love You" nor did I get the opportunity to say goodbye. I will be honest, my stolen goodbye still haunts me even over a year later. My stolen goodbye also brings out a lot of feelings of guilt at times. Rational Pamela knows I did everything I possibly could for Martin. Rational Pamela knows that Martin dying is not my fault. But almost one year later, when grief sneaks up on me I have to deal with the intense and overwhelming feelings that in some ways I let Martin down. My stolen goodbye also makes me wonder about so many