#blessed

One Sunday a few years ago our Pastor gave a sermon in which part of it he mentioned how people write #blessed on a lot of different things on social media.  I don't remember what else the sermon was about but the #blessed stuck out because being the person Martin was, right after that sermon he used #blessed a lot.  It became our thing!   He didn't write it on social media  but would sweetly say #blessed when we did something special together or if I did something small to make him happy.  He would also use it when big exciting things happened...buying a house, finding out we were expecting, and having Elsie and Graeme are just some of those big moments he would let me know how #blessed he was (that we were).  

I was also so blessed that we met, fell in love, and built a life together.  Yes,  we had some bumpy times, but those bumps only made us appreciate each other and our love even more.   Our life together should have been so much longer, and I still ask myself at times, why Martin?  He was so important to me, Elsie and Graeme, his family, his friends, his patients, and his co-workers.  It's not fair, and I know it is ok to express how I feel about losing him.  However, even though it is not fair he is no longer here with us I know I was #blessed for a little over six and half years with Martin in my life.  I also know I will continue to be #blessed because I have two absolutely amazing and wonderful little bundles of absolute  joy.  I thank God daily that he blessed Martin and I with Elsie and Graeme.  They are little pieces of Martin and a daily reminder of the incredible love he and I shared.  So yes, despite all the pain and heartache the past few months have brought into my life I still am and always will be #blessed.