Tomorrow Isn't Promised

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"Tomorrow Isn't Promised," something Martin told me every so often just out of the blue.  Tonight I was thinking about that statement and I couldn't believe how right he was.  I am going to be completely honest, I hate that he was right about this.  I truly thought I had so much more time with him, and he totally deserved more time with us.  

As I think about my life right now of course I am a bit angry.  I want him to be here for all the amazing moments that Elsie and Graeme are going to have in life.  I want him to be here to celebrate another anniversary.  I want him to be here so he can tell me he loves me and what a lucky guy he is.  I want him to be here to cheer me on and encourage me when I have doubts.  I want him to be here to we can make new memories together as husband and wife and as Mama and Papa.  Even though I want all those things and at times feel angry, I am grateful that he would remind me that "Tomorrow isn't promised." Martin always made sure we enjoyed the here and now because we never know what tomorrow will bring.  Because he reminded me of this  I always appreciated our moments in life together and never took them for granted.   So now I have memories that will last me forever, memories that I will cherish and keep close to my heart everyday, memories I can share with Elsie and Graeme one day, memories that help guide me through a rough day and bring me joy, and memories that give me the strength to move forward without him.    

Tomorrow Isn't Promised, so make sure you enjoy each and every moment with the ones you love, because you truly don't know when it will be your last.  Martin reminded me of this and I am so glad he did.  Yes, losing him is painful, but knowing I valued our moments together means everything to me.  


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